Stop the world I REALLY want to get off......

So, yesterday.....felt sooooooo agitated, angry, jumpy and like I had ants instead of blood in my veins. Spoke lots to counsellor and nearly cried. She said I seemed angry, maybe coz every other tom dick and fanny can express their rage, but oh not me, I have to keep it calm - well fuck you! Then the GP, I asked my Wife Paula to come to give the GP her perspective - and that ended up making me cry then and there - not easy to hear all that I heard - which I won't repeat by the way......so we went home, I cried more and slept badly again. Today I still feel like a worthless piece of shit........so really, what IS the fucking point anymore?